21 June, 2005
TIME
How I wish I could turn back the hands of time and turn myself into someone better. I grew up in a family, of five. There was Dad. There is still Mom around with my sister, and younger brother.
God took Dad away from us when I was 12, a day after my PSLE results. I was the closest child to Dad. He adores me a lot more but he loves us all equally.
Oh I do not really wish to talk about this.
When I was in school, I fooled around alot. Not as in playing truant or skipping lessons, but when it comes to paying attention in class, I would give myself a 2/10 rate. I only felt a bit of satisfaction when I was in ITE. My advisors motivated me alot. After completion of my Nitec Course, I had plans to further my studies but financial issues didnt allow me to.
Now, regret is what I feel.
I wish I had paid more attention in class.
I wish I had studied for my common tests, my mock exams and the BIG exams I had to sit for and not flip open notes last minutes cases.
I wish I had asked questions and not act 'bodoh sombong'.
I wish I had thought of the consequences of NOT having a good education, EARLIER.
I wish I could make Dad and Mom proud of who I am today if I had made good use of the TIME I had.
I wish... I wish... :(
11:43:00 PM